Journal
Ambrose’s journal
Sixty-six. Strength circle convert.
Awake at four
week 5tired energy 54 replies
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell…
First dose, done
week 4wired energy 23 replies
I told one person. Not my mother, not work. One person, and only because she asked me a direct question at the right moment. Nothing has happened yet, which nobody had warned…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 3held energy 44 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable…
Starters as a main
week 2awkward energy 41 reply
A brief account of the week. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. A…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 2organised energy 52 replies
Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen…
Day one
week 1hopeful energy 54 replies
What I keep coming back to is how long it took me to get here. Not the medication — the asking. Years of that. A methodical start. I told one person. Not my mother, not work.…