Journal
Peggy’s journal
Seventy. Told nobody for six months.
No project
week 97content energy 21 reply
The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I was enjoying having one. Steady. Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less…
Iron and B12
week 70relieved energy 24 replies
This week: Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard applied to me. A1c down. Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a…
Two flights of stairs
week 51grateful energy 52 replies
Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Walked to the shop and back every day for a…
Off the floor
week 43pleased energy 41 reply
Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly,…
I nearly did not write
week 42flat energy 33 replies
This week: Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An…
A new bin and a plan
week 41organised energy 3
Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer…
Nine minutes
week 40heard energy 5
A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her…
Somebody new
week 39warm energy 34 replies
This week: Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an…
She reduced it
week 38heard energy 22 replies
This week: She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried…
Stayed for the company
week 37warm energy 34 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the…
Sunday night, four lines
week 35held energy 54 replies
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a…
An unremarkable week
week 34fine energy 23 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal…
I nearly did not write
week 33fine energy 11 reply
This week: Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…
An unremarkable week
week 32fine energy 33 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did not write this week because…
Slept through
week 31tired energy 14 replies
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that…
Told her
week 30prickly energy 23 replies
This week: My son asked why I was not eating my dinner. I gave him a bad answer, thought about it all evening, and gave him a better one on Saturday. Told my daughter. She…
She read the diary
week 29heard energy 32 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I…
Why are you not eating
week 28close energy 31 reply
My son asked why I was not eating my dinner. I gave him a bad answer, thought about it all evening, and gave him a better one on Saturday. Told my daughter. She asked five…
Hiding the box
week 27close energy 33 replies
This week: My son asked why I was not eating my dinner. I gave him a bad answer, thought about it all evening, and gave him a better one on Saturday. Told my daughter. She…
My sister started too
week 27tender energy 42 replies
This week: My son asked why I was not eating my dinner. I gave him a bad answer, thought about it all evening, and gave him a better one on Saturday. Told her daughter. It…