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Saoirse’s journal
Gentle with myself, finally.
Where the pen lives
week 47organised energy 4
A gentle week, mostly. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. New sharps bin, and a…
A wedding
week 45loved energy 21 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a…
No news
week 43flat energy 31 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Nothing to report. Writing it down…
Walking
week 41tired but good energy 32 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have…
Quiet
week 39steady energy 31 reply
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Steady. That is the…
Sunday night, four lines
week 37held energy 44 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed…
She stopped the room
week 35warm energy 14 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the practical answers and stayed…
Stayed for the company
week 34warm energy 54 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the…
Nine minutes
week 31brisk energy 5
A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven…
I liked it before
week 31tired of it energy 23 replies
I liked my body before, actually, and I resent the assumption that I could not have. A hard month, handled in the body-image circle. Somebody said I looked well and it landed…
Fewer, heavier
week 29tired but good energy 52 replies
Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were…
The limits of yoghurt
week 27steady energy 53 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Greek yoghurt,…
An unremarkable week
week 25steady energy 33 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring…
The list on the fridge
week 23steady energy 23 replies
Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the…
Nothing to report
week 21flat energy 43 replies
A gentle week, mostly. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. No news.…
Two flights of stairs
week 19grateful energy 11 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not…
Steady
week 17steady energy 53 replies
A gentle week, mostly. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Quiet. Injection…
The question I had been avoiding
week 15brisk energy 42 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Left…
Not writing about this would be dishonest
week 13flat energy 34 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Cramp in both calves in the night, twice this week. Mentioned it and had bloods done rather than being told to eat a banana, which I appreciated.…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 13held energy 24 replies
A gentle week, mostly. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next…