Back down a step

Right.

Third day after the change is always the worst and I have finally stopped being surprised by it. Knowing it is coming does not make it pleasant, but it does make it survivable.

Held at a lower dose for four months and everything settled.

Asked about going slower and was braced for a fight I did not get. She said plenty of people do better on a longer step and wrote it down. I had spent a week rehearsing an argument.

I have been at the same step for five months and every clinician I meet seems mildly surprised. It is working. I am not moving.

Propped up on three pillows. Night.