Journal
Matt’s journal
Eighteen months steady. Happy to talk about the boring part.
Nothing happened again
week 121settled energy 5
Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady. Writes monthly. Reduced to…
Plainly
week 104full energy 53 replies
I want to say plainly that this room has done something for me that I did not think a website could do. It is mostly people writing down ordinary weeks for each other. Two…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 100tired but good energy 42 replies
This week: Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years…
Paired
week 98held energy 2
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I…
An hour on the floor
week 95grateful energy 21 reply
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now…
Quiet
week 92fine energy 33 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of…
Nine minutes
week 88heard energy 42 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got…
The question I had been avoiding
week 87heard energy 22 replies
This week: Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Blood pressure normal off…
Somebody new
week 86warm energy 44 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at…
Dreams
week 83rested energy 44 replies
This week: Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask.…
She noticed first
week 80held energy 24 replies
This week: She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or…
She stopped the room
week 77warm energy 24 replies
This week: Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of…
She read the diary
week 73heard energy 1
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got…
Two sessions
week 70tired but good energy 42 replies
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly right. Eight…
Two flights of stairs
week 67quietly delighted energy 41 reply
This week: Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Got down on the floor and back…
I nearly did not write
week 64flat energy 13 replies
This week: Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. I nearly did…
Nothing to report
week 63steady energy 14 replies
This week: I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Wrote the entry…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 61organised energy 3
Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern…
Walking
week 58tired but good energy 12 replies
This week: Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a…
Quiet
week 55flat energy 11 reply
This week: Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made…