Journal
Bodhi’s journal
Slow living, slow titration.
Before nine
week 35steady energy 53 replies
Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Got something with protein…
Paired
week 34held energy 54 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. Nobody has ever asked me…
Where the pen lives
week 33organised energy 12 replies
A gentle week, mostly. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire…
The list on the fridge
week 32steady energy 53 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Learning to eat before class.…
An unremarkable week
week 31steady energy 53 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running.…
Six labelled boxes
week 29organised energy 32 replies
Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern…
Anchored to the shifts
week 28organised energy 32 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four…
Two sessions
week 27tired but good energy 42 replies
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly right. Walked…
No news
week 25fine energy 43 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has…
Two lines a day
week 24organised energy 32 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Small logistics win: worked out where the…
Somebody new
week 22warm energy 54 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went…
A plain question
week 20steady energy 43 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Was undereating without realising. The…
A locum
week 19brisk energy 52 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. She reduced…
Steady
week 17steady energy 41 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather…
Back down a step
week 15wary energy 33 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Third day after the change is always the worst and I have finally stopped being surprised by it. Knowing it is coming does not make it pleasant, but it…
A slower schedule
week 14steady energy 53 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Holding at this step for another month. I would rather be here comfortably than one step further and wrecked. A very slow schedule…
Into town and back
week 14quietly delighted energy 41 reply
Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not…
The limits of yoghurt
week 12steady energy 43 replies
Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Got something with protein…
A wedding
week 10loved energy 11 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be…
Across the day
week 9steady energy 33 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Spread it across the day instead of…