Journal
Bruno’s journal
Italian family meals. It is going better than expected.
Nothing happened again
week 77flat energy 11 reply
Evening. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Steady. Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I…
Come back in a year
week 49relieved energy 5
Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had a come-back-in-a-year before. A1c down. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in a fortnight was…
Two flights of stairs
week 36pleased energy 31 reply
Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice…
Grip
week 35tired but good energy 42 replies
Evening. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that…
A new bin and a plan
week 34organised energy 52 replies
Evening. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date,…
I nearly did not write
week 33flat energy 21 reply
Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has…
Slept through
week 32foggy energy 5
Evening. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I…
What is your secret
week 31warm energy 11 reply
My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Starters as a main course,…
Unpleasant, not dangerous
week 30sore energy 24 replies
Evening. The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the pattern it stopped feeling like…
Not writing about this would be dishonest
week 30rough energy 44 replies
Bad week and I am writing it down anyway, because a journal that only contains the good weeks would be a lie and no use to anybody reading it later. Manageable. Constipation,…
Starters as a main
week 30awkward energy 41 reply
Evening. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Starters as a main…
A different shape
week 28rested energy 24 replies
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet…
Before nine
week 28steady energy 53 replies
Evening. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Protein first,…
No news
week 27fine energy 43 replies
Evening. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have…
Six labelled boxes
week 26organised energy 52 replies
Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days.…
Sunday lunch
week 25warm energy 21 reply
My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Starters as a main course,…
Two lengths, badly
week 24pleased energy 41 reply
Evening. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Tied my own laces standing up. I…
She reduced it
week 24heard energy 12 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had…
Circle tonight
week 23warm energy 14 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the practical answers and stayed…
No mask
week 22rested energy 34 replies
Evening. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I…