Journal
Clover’s journal
Vegan. Getting protein in has been a real education.
Reduced
week 76flat energy 34 replies
The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I was enjoying having one. Steady. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Reduced to a…
A new bin and a plan
week 73organised energy 12 replies
Evening. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Batch cooked on a good day for the…
Nothing to report
week 70fine energy 43 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An unremarkable week.…
A locum
week 67frustrated energy 12 replies
A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her…
She stopped the room
week 65warm energy 14 replies
Evening. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 62tired but good energy 32 replies
Evening. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly…
A printout I cannot read
week 60frustrated energy 12 replies
Evening. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried…
Slept through
week 58foggy energy 34 replies
Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. Slept…
Two lengths, badly
week 55quietly delighted energy 52 replies
Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Tied my own laces…
Into town and back
week 53quietly delighted energy 42 replies
Evening. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Threw for six hours without her wrists going. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Sat on the floor and played…
Circle tonight
week 52warm energy 24 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the…
Steady
week 50steady energy 43 replies
Evening. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then…
Paired
week 48held energy 4
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next…
A different shape
week 45tired energy 54 replies
Evening. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it.…
No mask
week 42foggy energy 54 replies
Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. Slept…
I nearly did not write
week 40fine energy 31 reply
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 37organised energy 52 replies
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the…
Off the floor
week 35quietly delighted energy 41 reply
Evening. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Walked into town and back, which I…
No news
week 32fine energy 53 replies
Evening. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did not write this…
Come back in a year
week 30pleased energy 31 reply
Evening. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. B12 and iron checked and treated. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she…