Journal
Ned’s journal
Quiet bloke. Posting anyway.
Stayed for the company
week 24warm energy 44 replies
Short one tonight. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped…
Starters as a main
week 23awkward energy 41 reply
Late, and writing anyway. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Starters as a main course, permanently. No…
I nearly did not write
week 22flat energy 43 replies
Short one tonight. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Steady. That is the whole entry. Aye.
She stopped the room
week 21warm energy 44 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said…
Steady
week 20flat energy 23 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Steady. That is the whole entry. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Aye.
Where the pen lives
week 19organised energy 32 replies
A quiet week. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. New sharps bin, and a plan for…
Nothing to report
week 18steady energy 53 replies
A quiet week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Steady. That is the whole entry. Aye.
Nine minutes
week 17heard energy 22 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Took the diary in.…
An unremarkable week
week 16fine energy 31 reply
Steady. That is the whole entry. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Aye.
A new bin and a plan
week 15organised energy 42 replies
New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice…
Propped up on pillows
week 14sore energy 21 reply
A quiet week. The burping. Nobody mentions the burping. It is not in any leaflet and it is genuinely one of the odder experiences of my adult life. Reflux again. I slept…
The bad fortnight
week 13sore energy 52 replies
Short one tonight. A rough few days. Not dangerous, just relentlessly unpleasant, the kind of unwell where you cannot read and cannot sleep and cannot settle to anything.…
The pattern of it
week 13flat energy 24 replies
The burping. Nobody mentions the burping. It is not in any leaflet and it is genuinely one of the odder experiences of my adult life. Three sentences. Reflux again. I slept…
What is your secret
week 12loved energy 31 reply
A quiet week. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation…
Protein first
week 11steady energy 53 replies
A quiet week. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Was undereating…
My mother cooks
week 10loved energy 41 reply
A quiet week. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation…
Anchored to the shifts
week 9organised energy 12 replies
Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern…
Fewer, heavier
week 8tired but good energy 12 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which…
Quiet
week 7flat energy 43 replies
A quiet week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Steady. That is the whole entry. Aye.
Flat, whole night
week 7quietly delighted energy 11 reply
Short one tonight. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Got down on the floor…