Journal
Bea’s journal
Here early, here often, mostly reading.
She stopped the room
week 56warm energy 4
Late, and writing anyway. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified,…
No news
week 53fine energy 13 replies
Late, and writing anyway. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. An…
A wedding
week 50warm energy 41 reply
A quiet week. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Sunday lunch at my…
A printout I cannot read
week 50frustrated energy 54 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. A fertility conversation that went better than she…
She noticed first
week 48held energy 54 replies
Late, and writing anyway. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or…
Circle tonight
week 46warm energy 24 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Circle tonight.…
Starters as a main
week 43loved energy 51 reply
A quiet week. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Sunday lunch at my…
Steady
week 40fine energy 11 reply
Short one tonight. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well,…
No mask
week 38rested energy 34 replies
Short one tonight. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and…
Wrote it on the milestones page
week 37delighted energy 3
Late, and writing anyway. Wrote it in the milestones page as well, which I would have found embarrassing a year ago. Cycle regular for the first time in her adult life. I…
An unremarkable week
week 35steady energy 43 replies
Short one tonight. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh…
Into town and back
week 32quietly delighted energy 51 reply
Late, and writing anyway. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing…
Stayed for the company
week 30warm energy 44 replies
Short one tonight. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly…
My mother cooks
week 27loved energy 41 reply
Late, and writing anyway. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Sunday lunch…
Slept through
week 24rested energy 24 replies
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell…
Somebody new
week 23steadied energy 13 replies
A quiet week. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Joined the reading group and…
Laces
week 21grateful energy 51 reply
Short one tonight. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Got down on the floor and back up…
No news
week 19steady energy 23 replies
Short one tonight. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. An unremarkable week.…
Steady
week 16steady energy 13 replies
Late, and writing anyway. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog…
Sunday lunch
week 14awkward energy 11 reply
Short one tonight. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Sunday lunch at my…