Journal
Cato’s journal
Blunt, kind, occasionally both at once.
Reduced
week 76content energy 14 replies
This week: Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this journal. Steady.…
A1c down
week 55relieved energy 42 replies
This week: Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard applied to me. Good. Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had…
Circle tonight
week 41warm energy 14 replies
This week: Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the…
She reduced it
week 40brisk energy 32 replies
This week: A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Asked the question I had been avoiding…
Steady
week 39flat energy 43 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. Done talking.
The question I had been avoiding
week 38heard energy 52 replies
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Left with a printout I could not read and no…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 37organised energy 4
This week: Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when…
Dreams
week 35foggy energy 42 replies
This week: Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I…
Awake at four
week 35foggy energy 22 replies
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Apnoea improved. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better,…
Slept through
week 34tired energy 14 replies
This week: Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I…
Where the pen lives
week 34organised energy 5
New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of…
Across the day
week 33steady energy 53 replies
This week: Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question…
A different shape
week 31rested energy 24 replies
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet…
She reduced it
week 31brisk energy 12 replies
This week: Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. Took the diary in. She read it properly,…
The question I had been avoiding
week 30brisk energy 5
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that…
Somebody new
week 29warm energy 14 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle tonight. Eight of us,…
Quiet
week 28flat energy 31 reply
This week: Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week…
Steady
week 27steady energy 31 reply
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked,…
Quiet
week 26flat energy 33 replies
This week: An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. Done talking.
No mask
week 25rested energy 24 replies
This week: Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I…