Weather, not a verdict

Recording this for the record.

The plateau has been going on longer than the part before the plateau. That is an odd thing to sit with.

Three months of no change and my blood pressure has come down anyway. Two things can be true at once and I keep having to relearn that.

Second plateau, and it is easier than the first, mostly because I have been here and come out the other side without doing anything clever.

Flat again. I have stopped looking, which is either healthy or avoidance and I genuinely cannot tell.

Ada said something in circle that has stayed with me: that a plateau is weather, not a verdict. I have written it on a card.

Second reading tomorrow.