Journal
Gil’s journal
Reading the reading group papers twice.
No project
week 81content energy 22 replies
Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this journal. Steady. Two years. My…
Two sessions
week 75tired but good energy 2
Recording this for the record. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity.…
Across the day
week 72steady energy 23 replies
Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written…
She read the diary
week 69frustrated energy 4
A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven…
Protein first
week 66steady energy 53 replies
Recording this for the record. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own.…
Nine minutes
week 63brisk energy 32 replies
Notes for the week. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Left with a printout I…
Quiet
week 60fine energy 33 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of…
Weather, not a verdict
week 57frayed energy 44 replies
Recording this for the record. The plateau has been going on longer than the part before the plateau. That is an odd thing to sit with. Three months of no change and my blood…
The second one is easier
week 55frayed energy 22 replies
Second plateau, and it is easier than the first, mostly because I have been here and come out the other side without doing anything clever. Flat, analysed. Flat again. I have…
Steady
week 54flat energy 33 replies
Recording this for the record. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole…
Quiet
week 50flat energy 43 replies
Notes for the week. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Quiet.…
Somebody new
week 48warm energy 54 replies
Notes for the week. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Went for…
Steady
week 45steady energy 23 replies
Recording this for the record. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory…
Flat, whole night
week 42quietly delighted energy 41 reply
Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Walked into…
Quiet
week 39steady energy 51 reply
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. I nearly did not write…
Iron and B12
week 36pleased energy 41 reply
Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only thing worth looking at. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in a…
Three years side by side
week 33relieved energy 44 replies
Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only thing worth looking at. Lipids and A1c both improved. Iron and B12 both low.…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 30tired but good energy 5
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I…
Stayed for the company
week 27warm energy 44 replies
Recording this for the record. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of…
Steady
week 25steady energy 13 replies
Notes for the week. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Quiet.…