Journal
Hannah’s journal
Three months in and learning to ask for help before I am desperate.
No project
week 100content energy 31 reply
Short one tonight. Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady, on a…
Six labelled boxes
week 97organised energy 1
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is…
Both bags, one go
week 94pleased energy 21 reply
Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me.…
Across the day
week 92steady energy 13 replies
Short one tonight. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Was undereating without realising. The…
No news
week 89flat energy 41 reply
A quiet week. Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 86organised energy 22 replies
A quiet week. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Tested three cool bags against a…
She reduced it
week 84heard energy 42 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I…
A locum
week 81brisk energy 12 replies
Short one tonight. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. She reduced one of my other…
An unremarkable week
week 79steady energy 43 replies
Short one tonight. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I…
Two lines a day
week 76organised energy 42 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. Batch cooked on a good…
Sunday night, four lines
week 75held energy 42 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired with maryam_mornings. They text on Sunday nights.…
Steady
week 74steady energy 33 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole entry. An…
A different shape
week 71rested energy 4
Late, and writing anyway. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Repeat study came…
A printout I cannot read
week 69brisk energy 5
Late, and writing anyway. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what…
Walking
week 66tired but good energy 32 replies
Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed…
She reduced it
week 63frustrated energy 1
Short one tonight. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. A locum who had clearly read…
Grip
week 61tired but good energy 12 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Two sessions this week, both…
A locum
week 58heard energy 5
Late, and writing anyway. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. She reduced one of my…
Not a number
week 56delighted energy 44 replies
Wrote it in the milestones page as well, which I would have found embarrassing a year ago. Cycle returned after six years. Complicated feelings, mostly about her twenties. I…
The limits of yoghurt
week 55steady energy 53 replies
Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Spread it across the day…