Journal
Inês’s journal
Small steps only. It is the only way I last.
Reduced
week 85content energy 11 reply
A quiet week. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this journal. Reduced…
Slept through
week 82tired energy 24 replies
Short one tonight. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is…
Nothing happened again
week 82flat energy 31 reply
Short one tonight. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this journal.…
Nothing to report
week 81steady energy 43 replies
Short one tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An…
Somebody new
week 78warm energy 5
Short one tonight. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when four of…
Quiet
week 77fine energy 43 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal…
Into town and back
week 74quietly delighted energy 41 reply
Late, and writing anyway. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Got down…
Where the pen lives
week 72organised energy 32 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months.…
She stopped the room
week 70warm energy 34 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about…
The question I had been avoiding
week 69frustrated energy 52 replies
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I…
I nearly did not write
week 66flat energy 43 replies
A quiet week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…
The list on the fridge
week 64steady energy 13 replies
Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have…
Sunday night, four lines
week 62held energy 2
Short one tonight. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed something in…
Nothing to report
week 60fine energy 53 replies
Short one tonight. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did not…
Circle tonight
week 60steadied energy 11 reply
A quiet week. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Slow titrators, where she is…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 58tired but good energy 42 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Grip strength has gone off and I…
Quiet
week 56steady energy 23 replies
Short one tonight. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That…
An hour on the floor
week 54grateful energy 11 reply
A quiet week. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that…
Awake at four
week 52tired energy 1
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten…
Two sessions
week 49tired but good energy 32 replies
A quiet week. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Kept the two sessions that matter and…