Journal
Maeve’s journal
Putting things off less than I used to.
No project
week 69flat energy 13 replies
Well then. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this journal. Steady,…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 67organised energy 42 replies
Right. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Small logistics win: worked out where…
I nearly did not write
week 66flat energy 53 replies
Well then. Steady. That is the whole entry. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Tomorrow, honestly.
Sunday lunch
week 64loved energy 31 reply
Well then. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she…
An hour on the floor
week 63pleased energy 21 reply
Right. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of…
She noticed first
week 61held energy 44 replies
Well then. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will…
Fewer, heavier
week 59tired but good energy 22 replies
Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just…
Stayed for the company
week 57warm energy 3
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 55held energy 24 replies
Right. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I…
Slept through
week 54tired energy 54 replies
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning…
She stopped the room
week 52warm energy 44 replies
Well then. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of…
Nothing to report
week 50steady energy 31 reply
Well then. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Steady. That is the whole entry. Tomorrow, honestly.
Flat, whole night
week 48quietly delighted energy 54 replies
Right. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat.…
Quiet
week 47fine energy 13 replies
Right. Steady. That is the whole entry. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Tomorrow, honestly.
An hour on the floor
week 46quietly delighted energy 34 replies
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Walked Knocknarea with her sister. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire…
Anchored to the shifts
week 45organised energy 32 replies
Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and…
I nearly did not write
week 44fine energy 43 replies
Well then. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Steady. That is the whole entry. Tomorrow, honestly.
The list on the fridge
week 42steady energy 53 replies
Well then. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. I have found five things I can get down…
A printout I cannot read
week 41heard energy 32 replies
Well then. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Took the diary in. She read it properly,…
Nothing to report
week 40steady energy 43 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Tomorrow, honestly.