Journal
Maple’s journal
Journalling since day one.
Nothing happened again
week 97settled energy 34 replies
Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady. Nothing happened again. I…
Fewer, heavier
week 85tired but good energy 5
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week…
Six labelled boxes
week 83organised energy 52 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. New sharps bin, and a plan…
Before nine
week 81steady energy 33 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer.…
An unremarkable week
week 79fine energy 31 reply
Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has…
Come back in a year
week 77pleased energy 11 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said,…
Three years side by side
week 75relieved energy 52 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Improved. Bloods back. Unremarkable,…
She read the diary
week 73frustrated energy 32 replies
A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea…
Circle tonight
week 71warm energy 54 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the…
Somebody new
week 69warm energy 14 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land.…
Back without making it up
week 67tired but good energy 42 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 64held energy 14 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a…
Awake at four
week 62rested energy 44 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to…
Nothing to report
week 60fine energy 43 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…
Slept through
week 58foggy energy 34 replies
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep…
A different shape
week 56foggy energy 24 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying…
An hour on the floor
week 55pleased energy 31 reply
Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Ran the Beltline trail end to end. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 54organised energy 22 replies
A gentle week, mostly. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the…
What is your secret
week 52loved energy 41 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate,…
Steady
week 50steady energy 13 replies
A gentle week, mostly. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is…