Journal
Maple’s journal
Journalling since day one.
Circle tonight
week 48warm energy 1
A gentle week, mostly. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly…
Starters as a main
week 46warm energy 11 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Sunday lunch at my…
I nearly did not write
week 44steady energy 51 reply
Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has…
Somebody new
week 42warm energy 24 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and…
No news
week 40flat energy 43 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…
Two lines a day
week 38organised energy 32 replies
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in…
No mask
week 36foggy energy 14 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to…
Two lengths, badly
week 33pleased energy 11 reply
Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Walked into town and back, which I stopped…
What was underneath
week 32thoughtful energy 53 replies
Went past the shop I always go into and simply did not go in. Not resisted. Did not occur to me. I stood outside for a moment afterwards trying to work out what had happened.…
Quiet
week 31steady energy 53 replies
A gentle week, mostly. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is…
She reduced it
week 29heard energy 42 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. She reduced one…
Circle tonight
week 27warm energy 44 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight,…
An unremarkable week
week 25fine energy 33 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No…
Six labelled boxes
week 23organised energy 52 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled…
Nothing to report
week 21flat energy 53 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather…
Walking
week 19tired but good energy 52 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps…
Steady
week 17steady energy 31 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running.…
The pattern of it
week 16flat energy 13 replies
A rough few days. Not dangerous, just relentlessly unpleasant, the kind of unwell where you cannot read and cannot sleep and cannot settle to anything. Documented gently. The…
Two sessions
week 15tired but good energy 52 replies
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly right. Kept…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 12organised energy 32 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. New sharps bin, and a plan for what…