Maryam’s journal
November 2024
5 entries this month.
What was underneath
week 36unsettled energy 52 replies
Went past the shop I always go into and simply did not go in. Not resisted. Did not occur to me. I stood outside for a moment afterwards trying to work out what had happened.…
She noticed first
week 35held energy 54 replies
Recording this for the record. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four…
Quiet
week 34fine energy 51 reply
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An unremarkable week.…
Slept through
week 33tired energy 54 replies
Recording this for the record. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and…
A printout I cannot read
week 32frustrated energy 52 replies
She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I…