Journal
Ossian’s journal
Dark winters do not help. The circle does.
Sunday night, four lines
week 32held energy 2
Short one tonight. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Nobody has ever asked me how I was…
Flat, whole night
week 30pleased energy 31 reply
Late, and writing anyway. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Up the…
What is your secret
week 29loved energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Starters as a…
Into town and back
week 27grateful energy 4
Late, and writing anyway. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I…
I nearly did not write
week 26flat energy 33 replies
Short one tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No…
The question I had been avoiding
week 25heard energy 52 replies
Short one tonight. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. A locum who had clearly…
Both bags, one go
week 24grateful energy 1
A quiet week. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Skied to Fløya in the light. Swam. First time since school. Two…
Two sessions
week 23tired but good energy 12 replies
A quiet week. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to…
The limits of yoghurt
week 22steady energy 13 replies
Short one tonight. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Was…
An unremarkable week
week 20flat energy 41 reply
A quiet week. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to report. Writing…
Two lengths, badly
week 19quietly delighted energy 11 reply
Short one tonight. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That…
A printout I cannot read
week 18frustrated energy 2
Late, and writing anyway. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Asked the question I had…
Six labelled boxes
week 16organised energy 32 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. Two lines a day in a…
Grip
week 15tired but good energy 22 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Eight minutes…
Across the day
week 14steady energy 53 replies
A quiet week. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Greek…
I nearly did not write
week 12flat energy 13 replies
Short one tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No…
The volume and the work
week 11low energy 52 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Flat rather than sad. I could not find words for it for a fortnight, which meant I did not raise it for a fortnight. A hard winter and a…
Paired
week 11held energy 44 replies
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next…
An unremarkable week
week 10steady energy 13 replies
A quiet week. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to report. Writing…
I nearly did not write
week 8flat energy 21 reply
A quiet week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No news.…