Journal
Stefan’s journal
Stepped back a dose and everything improved.
Two years, no news
week 77settled energy 34 replies
Recording this for the record. Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Steady. The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not…
Protein first
week 71steady energy 53 replies
Recording this for the record. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own.…
No mask
week 68foggy energy 34 replies
Notes for the week. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written…
Nothing to report
week 65steady energy 43 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. No news. The dog is well, the…
I nearly did not write
week 62flat energy 51 reply
Notes for the week. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Quiet. Injection…
A new bin and a plan
week 59organised energy 12 replies
Recording this for the record. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months.…
A printout I cannot read
week 56heard energy 22 replies
A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven…
Stayed for the company
week 53warm energy 5
Notes for the week. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle…
A1c down
week 51relieved energy 34 replies
Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard applied to me. A1c down at a lower dose than the label suggests. Iron and B12 both low. Treated.…
Starters as a main
week 51awkward energy 11 reply
Notes for the week. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as a main…
Quiet
week 48fine energy 21 reply
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it…
She noticed first
week 45held energy 44 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday…
She read the diary
week 42frustrated energy 4
Notes for the week. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Left with a printout I…
The list on the fridge
week 39steady energy 43 replies
Notes for the week. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 36tired but good energy 22 replies
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a…
A wedding
week 33warm energy 21 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as a main course,…
Nothing to report
week 31fine energy 21 reply
Notes for the week. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Everything improved. He wrote a very good entry about…
I nearly did not write
week 30fine energy 23 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Steady. That is the…
What is your secret
week 28awkward energy 11 reply
Recording this for the record. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word.…
Both bags, one go
week 24quietly delighted energy 41 reply
Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Got down on the floor and back up…