Journal
Zeb’s journal
US insurance maze. Winning slowly.
She stopped the room
week 41warm energy 34 replies
Week in order: Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us…
Nothing to report
week 39fine energy 33 replies
Week in order: Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No news.…
Stayed for the company
week 38warm energy 12 replies
Week in order: Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Insurance-appeals circle, where he and Mo compare methods.…
Two flights of stairs
week 37quietly delighted energy 11 reply
Three things this week. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four…
Sunday night, four lines
week 34held energy 34 replies
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the…
My mother cooks
week 33loved energy 51 reply
Week in order: Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of…
Nine minutes
week 31brisk energy 3
Three things this week. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions…
The list on the fridge
week 29steady energy 13 replies
Three things this week. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and…
Fewer, heavier
week 27tired but good energy 32 replies
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I…
She stopped the room
week 24warm energy 44 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the practical answers and stayed…
Where the pen lives
week 22organised energy 22 replies
Three things this week. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Two lines a day in a…
No mask
week 21rested energy 4
Week in order: Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other…
Sore and slow
week 20flat energy 53 replies
The burping. Nobody mentions the burping. It is not in any leaflet and it is genuinely one of the odder experiences of my adult life. Tracked meticulously. Reflux again. I…
A different shape
week 19tired energy 14 replies
Three things this week. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off.…
The question I had been avoiding
week 16brisk energy 42 replies
Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Asked the question I had been avoiding for…
Flat, whole night
week 15quietly delighted energy 31 reply
Week in order: Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Swam. First time since school.…
Stayed for the company
week 13warm energy 44 replies
Week in order: The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Somebody new…
She read the diary
week 10frustrated energy 42 replies
Week in order: Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Took the diary in. She read it…
She noticed first
week 8held energy 14 replies
Week in order: She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my journal…
Sunday night, four lines
week 6held energy 44 replies
Three things this week. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next…