Journal
Zoë’s journal
Twenty-six, paying out of pocket, watching every penny.
Propped up on pillows
week 21sore energy 2
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Constipation, which I have avoided writing about for six weeks out of pure squeamishness. It is the thing making me most miserable and I have…
I nearly did not write
week 19steady energy 23 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Quiet. Injection…
She stopped the room
week 16warm energy 1
Quickly, before bed. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were…
Grip
week 13tired but good energy 32 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Kept the two sessions…
The arithmetic
week 10pinched energy 3
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Pausing for two months. Not a failure, not a moral event, just a month where the money is not there. Worked out the arithmetic in public and…
Walking
week 6tired but good energy 32 replies
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which…
Day one
week 3hopeful energy 32 replies
I want to write this down before I forget how frightened I was, because I suspect in three months I will not believe it. Twenty minutes of standing there. Then eight seconds.…
Beginning, badly
week 3nervous energy 31 reply
Ten minutes then I am asleep. The leaflet is nine pages and about seven of them are worst cases. I have read it three times, which was three times too many, and I am now…