Journal
Zoë’s journal
Twenty-six, paying out of pocket, watching every penny.
An unremarkable week
week 80steady energy 51 reply
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady-ish, still budgeting,…
Two lengths, badly
week 67pleased energy 13 replies
Quickly, before bed. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Rode the Dunwich Dynamo. Two hundred kilometres, one very tired…
I nearly did not write
week 64flat energy 51 reply
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole…
An unremarkable week
week 61fine energy 13 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was…
Anchored to the shifts
week 58organised energy 52 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in…
I nearly did not write
week 55fine energy 53 replies
Quickly, before bed. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Nothing to…
Back
week 53nervous energy 14 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Back. Eight months away and I arrived braced for a judgement that has not come from a single person. The shame about the gap was worse than any…
The shame was the worst of it
week 51nervous energy 14 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Starting from the bottom again, which my prescriber was firm about and which I am now grateful for. Restarted when she picked up more shifts.…
An unremarkable week
week 50fine energy 43 replies
Quickly, before bed. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing.…
Walking
week 46tired but good energy 12 replies
Quickly, before bed. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it…
Six months off
week 43calm energy 13 replies
Last dose was three weeks ago. Appetite is coming back in a shape I recognise and I am watching it with interest rather than fear, mostly. I could not afford it. That is the…
Not properly consulted
week 42resolved energy 34 replies
Quickly, before bed. Last dose was three weeks ago. Appetite is coming back in a shape I recognise and I am watching it with interest rather than fear, mostly. Paused for two…
I nearly did not write
week 41fine energy 21 reply
Quickly, before bed. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it.…
Flat, whole night
week 38quietly delighted energy 31 reply
Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years.…
A locum
week 34brisk energy 42 replies
Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Asked the question I had been avoiding for…
An unremarkable week
week 31fine energy 23 replies
Quickly, before bed. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Nothing to…
My mother cooks
week 29warm energy 12 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved.…
The list on the fridge
week 28steady energy 23 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. I have found five things…
The question I had been avoiding
week 25heard energy 52 replies
Quickly, before bed. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Took the diary in. She…
Unpleasant, not dangerous
week 22flat energy 11 reply
Quickly, before bed. Constipation, which I have avoided writing about for six weeks out of pure squeamishness. It is the thing making me most miserable and I have said…