Journal
Ammi’s journal
Here quietly. Reading more than posting.
Paired
week 25held energy 54 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way…
I nearly did not write
week 24flat energy 53 replies
Short one tonight. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it.…
Nothing to report
week 23fine energy 43 replies
Short one tonight. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Nothing to…
Quiet
week 22flat energy 41 reply
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Quiet. Injection…
The list on the fridge
week 21steady energy 53 replies
Short one tonight. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. I have found five things I can get…
I nearly did not write
week 20fine energy 23 replies
A quiet week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I…
Sunday night, four lines
week 19held energy 5
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a…
The bad fortnight
week 17sore energy 54 replies
Late, and writing anyway. The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the pattern it stopped…
Sore and slow
week 16sore energy 42 replies
The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the pattern it stopped feeling like something…
Nothing to report
week 15flat energy 41 reply
Late, and writing anyway. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks.…
A rough few days
week 14flat energy 42 replies
Late, and writing anyway. The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the pattern it stopped…
An hour on the floor
week 14grateful energy 31 reply
Short one tonight. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Tied my own laces standing up. I am…
Quiet
week 13steady energy 33 replies
Short one tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing.…
The limits of yoghurt
week 13steady energy 33 replies
Short one tonight. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Greek…
I nearly did not write
week 12fine energy 31 reply
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about…
Nothing to report
week 11fine energy 43 replies
A quiet week. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Nothing to…
She read the diary
week 10brisk energy 2
Late, and writing anyway. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Left with a printout…
Stayed for the company
week 9warm energy 54 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator…
Protein first
week 8steady energy 23 replies
A quiet week. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the…
Both bags, one go
week 7quietly delighted energy 51 reply
Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Reading on.