Journal
Gavin’s journal
Big lad, bad knees, very slowly getting back to the hills.
Reduced
week 97content energy 14 replies
Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this journal. Steady, hillwalking…
Not a number
week 69delighted energy 24 replies
Wrote it in the milestones page as well, which I would have found embarrassing a year ago. Munro. First in nine years. The entry is mostly about the weather. Not a number. A…
Slept through
week 53rested energy 33 replies
Short one tonight. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. CPAP off after a repeat study. He wrote four…
Laces
week 40grateful energy 41 reply
Late, and writing anyway. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Walked up…
Quiet
week 38flat energy 43 replies
A quiet week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Steady. That is the whole entry. Cheers.
Somebody new
week 37warm energy 44 replies
Short one tonight. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped…
Protein first
week 36steady energy 53 replies
Short one tonight. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Was…
Awake at four
week 35foggy energy 34 replies
Late, and writing anyway. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea…
Sunday night, four lines
week 34held energy 24 replies
Late, and writing anyway. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in…
Steady
week 33steady energy 41 reply
Steady. That is the whole entry. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Cheers.
Dreams
week 32tired energy 24 replies
Short one tonight. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is…
Quiet
week 31steady energy 31 reply
A quiet week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Steady. That is the whole entry. Cheers.
No mask
week 30tired energy 34 replies
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten…
Paired
week 29held energy 54 replies
Late, and writing anyway. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and…
My mother cooks
week 28loved energy 41 reply
Late, and writing anyway. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can,…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 27steady energy 33 replies
Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the…
Fewer, heavier
week 26steady energy 53 replies
A quiet week. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Started with a chair and a resistance band because…
Starters as a main
week 26warm energy 11 reply
Short one tonight. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and…
A different shape
week 25tired energy 4
Late, and writing anyway. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea…
She stopped the room
week 24warm energy 54 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I…