Journal
Gigi’s journal
Nonna cooks. I eat what I can. We manage.
Just Wednesdays
week 98content energy 32 replies
Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady. Wednesdays are just…
A1c down
week 83relieved energy 32 replies
A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. A1c down. Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had…
Both bags, one go
week 59pleased energy 11 reply
Evening. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Walked up the Vomero steps. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Swam. First…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 42tired but good energy 12 replies
Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were…
She read the diary
week 41frustrated energy 3
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. She reduced one of my other medications. I…
Protein first
week 40steady energy 43 replies
Evening. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Got something with…
Sore and slow
week 38sore energy 33 replies
Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it this time rather than…
A locum
week 37frustrated energy 42 replies
Evening. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it…
A rough few days
week 37rough energy 14 replies
Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. Manageable. Bad week…
She read the diary
week 36frustrated energy 22 replies
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. She reduced one of my other medications. I…
Back without making it up
week 35tired but good energy 32 replies
Evening. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking.…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 34tired but good energy 32 replies
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven…
She noticed first
week 33held energy 44 replies
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a…
Anchored to the shifts
week 32organised energy 52 replies
Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Tested three cool bags against…
The limits of yoghurt
week 31steady energy 53 replies
Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Protein first, everything else after. It is not…
My mother cooks
week 30awkward energy 31 reply
Evening. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working…
A new bin and a plan
week 29organised energy 12 replies
Evening. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. Anchored injection day to my shift…
Slept through
week 28rested energy 14 replies
Evening. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced.…
Awake at four
week 27foggy energy 34 replies
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten…
Sunday night, four lines
week 26held energy 54 replies
Evening. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed something in my journal…