Journal
Gwenda’s journal
Sixty-two, type 2, feet much better.
Just Wednesdays
week 90flat energy 22 replies
This week: Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Steady. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. The strange part is not having a project any more. I…
Nine minutes
week 58frustrated energy 54 replies
This week: Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Podiatry review much improved. Nine…
I nearly did not write
week 39fine energy 23 replies
This week: Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made…
Circle tonight
week 38warm energy 34 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped the room when four…
Back without making it up
week 37tired but good energy 32 replies
Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme.…
She noticed first
week 36held energy 5
This week: My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will…
A printout I cannot read
week 35frustrated energy 52 replies
Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Took the diary in. She read it properly,…
Come back in a year
week 34pleased energy 51 reply
This week: Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard applied to me. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my…
Paired
week 33held energy 14 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and…
Iron and B12
week 32relieved energy 22 replies
This week: Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard applied to me. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my…
Three years side by side
week 31relieved energy 22 replies
Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard applied to me. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which…
A1c down
week 31pleased energy 21 reply
Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard applied to me. A1c down. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother,…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 29tired but good energy 3
This week: Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren…
Quiet
week 29steady energy 33 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. I nearly did not write…
Nine minutes
week 28frustrated energy 32 replies
This week: Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She…
She stopped the room
week 27warm energy 24 replies
This week: Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the…
A printout I cannot read
week 26heard energy 12 replies
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Nine minutes. I took three written questions…
Somebody new
week 26warm energy 44 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which…
Laces
week 24grateful energy 41 reply
This week: Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Got down on the floor and back…
Sunday night, four lines
week 24held energy 44 replies
This week: My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will…