Journal
Gwyneth’s journal
Valleys born. Blunt and warm.
Nothing happened again
week 93flat energy 31 reply
Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Steady. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Nos da.
Quiet
week 81fine energy 53 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on…
What is your secret
week 80warm energy 31 reply
This week: Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she…
Circle tonight
week 77warm energy 14 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Went for the practical…
Fewer, heavier
week 76tired but good energy 42 replies
This week: Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make…
Slept through
week 74rested energy 5
This week: The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 72held energy 1
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole…
Steady
week 70fine energy 53 replies
This week: No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did not write this…
She stopped the room
week 67warm energy 1
This week: Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at…
She read the diary
week 66frustrated energy 12 replies
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers,…
The question I had been avoiding
week 63heard energy 22 replies
This week: Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Asked the question I had been…
Two sessions
week 62tired but good energy 42 replies
Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the…
An hour on the floor
week 61grateful energy 32 replies
This week: Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Walked up to the Dare Valley park and back. Full shift on my feet and my knees did…
Quiet
week 60steady energy 51 reply
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That is the whole…
Steady
week 57steady energy 51 reply
This week: Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression…
Quiet
week 56flat energy 23 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An unremarkable week.…
Steady
week 53fine energy 31 reply
This week: An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and…
Fewer, heavier
week 52tired but good energy 42 replies
This week: Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make…
Two sessions
week 50tired but good energy 32 replies
Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the…
Fewer, heavier
week 48tired but good energy 52 replies
This week: Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make…