Journal
Marit’s journal
Cycling everywhere. Eating enough is the hard bit.
Sunday lunch
week 36awkward energy 21 reply
This week: My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Starters as a main…
Laces
week 34grateful energy 43 replies
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Bike tomorrow.
Flat, whole night
week 33pleased energy 21 reply
This week: Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Cycled to Leeuwarden and back. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the…
No news
week 31steady energy 23 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole entry. Bike…
Sunday night, four lines
week 29held energy 54 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday…
A wedding
week 27warm energy 41 reply
My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Starters as a main course,…
I nearly did not write
week 24flat energy 33 replies
This week: Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Bike tomorrow.
Paired
week 22held energy 14 replies
This week: Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week and I had a fine…
Two lengths, badly
week 20pleased energy 31 reply
Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Bike tomorrow.
A different shape
week 17tired energy 24 replies
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep…
Grip
week 14tired but good energy 12 replies
This week: Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Grip strength has gone off and…
Across the day
week 14practical energy 34 replies
This week: Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Undereating and cycling twenty kilometres a day. Caught it. I have…
No mask
week 12rested energy 1
This week: Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler.…
Steady
week 9steady energy 23 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…
Six labelled boxes
week 6organised energy 52 replies
This week: Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Small logistics win: worked out…
First dose, done
week 3wired energy 33 replies
This week: What I keep coming back to is how long it took me to get here. Not the medication — the asking. Years of that. So. First one done. I had been carrying the box…
Day one
week 2nervous energy 31 reply
I told one person. Not my mother, not work. One person, and only because she asked me a direct question at the right moment. Started in September and cycled to the pharmacy…