Journal
Oskar’s journal
Reading the Polish and the English guidance side by side.
A printout I cannot read
week 22heard energy 22 replies
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which…
Awake at four
week 19rested energy 34 replies
Recording this for the record. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that…
Sore and slow
week 15sore energy 12 replies
Very tired. Not the kind of tired a nap fixes. I slept nine hours and woke feeling as though I had been awake all night. Cramp in both calves in the night, twice this week.…
Unpleasant, not dangerous
week 15sore energy 33 replies
Cramp in both calves in the night, twice this week. Mentioned it and had bloods done rather than being told to eat a banana, which I appreciated. Documented meticulously.…
Nine minutes
week 12heard energy 42 replies
Notes for the week. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and…
A new bin and a plan
week 10organised energy 32 replies
Notes for the week. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Anchored injection day to…
She stopped the room
week 6warm energy 14 replies
Notes for the week. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in…
Where the pen lives
week 3organised energy 12 replies
Recording this for the record. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months.…
First dose, done
week 1wired energy 43 replies
Notes for the week. I want to write this down before I forget how frightened I was, because I suspect in three months I will not believe it. Twenty minutes of standing there.…