Journal
Oskar’s journal
Reading the Polish and the English guidance side by side.
Just Wednesdays
week 83flat energy 21 reply
Recording this for the record. Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Steady, still comparing. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. The strange part…
Sunday night, four lines
week 69held energy 44 replies
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a…
Flat, whole night
week 66pleased energy 21 reply
Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody…
Quiet
week 63steady energy 13 replies
Notes for the week. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Quiet.…
A calculator and a cup of tea
week 62clear-eyed energy 13 replies
Recording this for the record. Pausing for two months. Not a failure, not a moral event, just a month where the money is not there. A price change and a long analysis of it.…
Where the pen lives
week 60organised energy 22 replies
Recording this for the record. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months.…
An hour on the floor
week 57pleased energy 31 reply
Recording this for the record. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Slept flat. Whole…
The limits of yoghurt
week 54steady energy 23 replies
Recording this for the record. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting…
I nearly did not write
week 51steady energy 41 reply
Notes for the week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a…
Flat, whole night
week 48grateful energy 11 reply
Notes for the week. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down.…
Anchored to the shifts
week 45organised energy 22 replies
New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other…
Three years side by side
week 43relieved energy 34 replies
Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard applied to me. A1c down. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother,…
Grip
week 42tired but good energy 52 replies
Recording this for the record. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 39tired but good energy 32 replies
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven…
My mother cooks
week 36loved energy 11 reply
Notes for the week. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Somebody…
No mask
week 33rested energy 24 replies
Notes for the week. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there…
An hour on the floor
week 30quietly delighted energy 51 reply
Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Sat on the floor and played for an hour,…
Circle tonight
week 28warm energy 34 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. EU circle, where he is the person who knows…
Nothing to report
week 27fine energy 53 replies
Notes for the week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. I…
Quiet
week 25flat energy 41 reply
Recording this for the record. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks.…