Journal
Pippa’s journal
Learning to stop before I am shattered.
Stayed for the company
week 35warm energy 44 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical…
I nearly did not write
week 34flat energy 21 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of…
An unremarkable week
week 32steady energy 23 replies
A gentle week, mostly. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by…
I nearly did not write
week 30fine energy 51 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have…
Into town and back
week 29pleased energy 11 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Got…
Sunday night, four lines
week 27held energy 24 replies
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a…
She stopped the room
week 26warm energy 3
A gentle week, mostly. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour.…
My mother cooks
week 25warm energy 51 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be…
Stayed for the company
week 24warm energy 1
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Long-covid circle, though hers is…
An unremarkable week
week 23steady energy 41 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I…
I nearly did not write
week 22flat energy 13 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 20tired but good energy 22 replies
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to…
She stopped the room
week 18warm energy 24 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified,…
An unremarkable week
week 17steady energy 43 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the…
I nearly did not write
week 15steady energy 23 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing.…
Dreams
week 14foggy energy 44 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid…
Two lines a day
week 12organised energy 12 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four…
Sore and slow
week 11sore energy 53 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Bad week and I am writing it down anyway, because a journal that only contains the good weeks would be a lie and no use to anybody…
Flat, whole night
week 9pleased energy 11 reply
Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got…
Unpleasant, not dangerous
week 9flat energy 51 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the…