Journal
Priya’s journal
Collecting the small things nobody claps for.
Nothing happened again
week 120flat energy 54 replies
Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Reduced dose, steady, still collecting small things. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the…
Once, then never again
week 106grateful energy 34 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Thank you to the person who replied to my first entry within an hour. You will not remember it. I do. Two years. Thanked people by…
An unremarkable week
week 83steady energy 1
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. A very ordinary autumn. She wrote about a bus stop for four hundred words.…
Neither of us said it
week 64tender energy 3
Sitting down to this properly tonight. He is finding this harder than I expected and neither of us has said so out loud. I am going to say so out loud. Her husband found the…
Off the floor
week 48pleased energy 23 replies
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Swam a full length underwater, aged forty-four, having not swum since school.…
I nearly did not write
week 33fine energy 33 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. An…
A new bin and a plan
week 32organised energy 4
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four…
Sore and slow
week 32flat energy 32 replies
Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it this time rather than…
An unremarkable week
week 31steady energy 23 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running.…
A plain question
week 30steady energy 13 replies
Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Protein first, everything…
She stopped the room
week 29warm energy 34 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Somebody new tonight,…
My mother cooks
week 29loved energy 51 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze…
I nearly did not write
week 28flat energy 43 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. No…
Before nine
week 27steady energy 33 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Was undereating without…
Both bags, one go
week 26pleased energy 51 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Got down on the…
Two sessions
week 25tired but good energy 5
Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a…
Dreams
week 23foggy energy 44 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved.…
Across the day
week 22steady energy 13 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my…
An unremarkable week
week 22fine energy 31 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day…
Circle tonight
week 21warm energy 54 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped…