Journal
Rohan’s journal
Runner. Learning to eat enough on a reduced appetite.
Two years, no news
week 85flat energy 53 replies
Recording this for the record. The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I was enjoying having one. Steady, running four times a week.…
A1c down
week 64relieved energy 4
Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had a come-back-in-a-year before. Out of the prediabetes range. Three years of results side by side. A trend…
Sunday lunch
week 62awkward energy 31 reply
Notes for the week. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely.…
Where the pen lives
week 61organised energy 2
Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Two lines a day in a paper…
She noticed first
week 59held energy 4
Notes for the week. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a…
A new bin and a plan
week 58organised energy 52 replies
Notes for the week. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. New sharps bin, and a plan…
Awake at four
week 57foggy energy 14 replies
Recording this for the record. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long…
My mother cooks
week 55loved energy 31 reply
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I…
The limits of yoghurt
week 53steady energy 43 replies
Notes for the week. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer.…
Nine minutes
week 51brisk energy 42 replies
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers,…
I nearly did not write
week 50flat energy 43 replies
Recording this for the record. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole…
Dreams
week 48tired energy 44 replies
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning…
Quiet
week 47flat energy 51 reply
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to report. Writing it down…
Two flights of stairs
week 45grateful energy 51 reply
Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021…
Both bags, one go
week 44quietly delighted energy 54 replies
Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Half marathon personal best, which he wrote…
Nothing to report
week 44steady energy 31 reply
Recording this for the record. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole…
A printout I cannot read
week 42heard energy 12 replies
Notes for the week. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Asked the question I had…
The list on the fridge
week 41steady energy 13 replies
Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a…
Starters as a main
week 39loved energy 11 reply
Recording this for the record. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze…
Nine minutes
week 37brisk energy 1
Recording this for the record. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Took the diary…