Journal
Rohan’s journal
Runner. Learning to eat enough on a reduced appetite.
No mask
week 36rested energy 54 replies
Notes for the week. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay…
Sunday night, four lines
week 34held energy 34 replies
Recording this for the record. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed…
The bad fortnight
week 33flat energy 52 replies
Notes for the week. Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. A…
Anchored to the shifts
week 33organised energy 32 replies
Recording this for the record. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I…
I nearly did not write
week 31fine energy 53 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to report. Writing it down…
A printout I cannot read
week 29brisk energy 22 replies
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers,…
She stopped the room
week 28warm energy 54 replies
Recording this for the record. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole…
Quiet
week 27flat energy 21 reply
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No news. The dog is…
Nothing to report
week 25fine energy 11 reply
Recording this for the record. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing…
Protein first
week 24steady energy 13 replies
Recording this for the record. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 23steady energy 41 reply
Notes for the week. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar…
A wedding
week 21loved energy 11 reply
Notes for the week. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely.…
Two sessions
week 20tired but good energy 5
Notes for the week. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Dropped a session a week and kept…
A different shape
week 19rested energy 34 replies
Recording this for the record. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long…
She noticed first
week 18held energy 44 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines…
I nearly did not write
week 17fine energy 33 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No news. The dog is…
Somebody new
week 15warm energy 44 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and…
The limits of yoghurt
week 13practical energy 14 replies
Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a…
The list on the fridge
week 12practical energy 52 replies
Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Protein first, everything…
Protein first
week 10steady energy 31 reply
Recording this for the record. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Vegetarian and…