Journal
Bex’s journal
Navy family. Moving every eighteen months.
Reduced
week 96flat energy 32 replies
Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this journal. Steady. The strange…
Steady
week 90fine energy 43 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there…
She read the diary
week 87frustrated energy 32 replies
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I…
She stopped the room
week 84warm energy 2
Quickly, before bed. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle…
Sunday night, four lines
week 82held energy 4
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly…
An unremarkable week
week 80fine energy 23 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An unremarkable week. Ate,…
Two lengths, badly
week 77grateful energy 31 reply
Quickly, before bed. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Boxes to pack.
Awake at four
week 74tired energy 44 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Vivid dreams, every night, the…
Two lines a day
week 71pleased energy 51 reply
Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days.…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 70organised energy 54 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Second move. Much smoother.…
No news
week 68flat energy 23 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there…
Steady
week 66fine energy 21 reply
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An unremarkable week. Ate,…
An unremarkable week
week 64steady energy 53 replies
Quickly, before bed. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there was…
Somebody new
week 61warm energy 14 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The…
Slept through
week 58tired energy 14 replies
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and…
No news
week 56steady energy 21 reply
Quickly, before bed. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An…
Steady
week 53fine energy 23 replies
Quickly, before bed. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there was…
Laces
week 50pleased energy 41 reply
Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now…
Off the floor
week 48quietly delighted energy 22 replies
Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Tied my own laces…
Into town and back
week 47quietly delighted energy 43 replies
Quickly, before bed. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Ran the Plymouth Hoe loop. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Boxes to pack.