Journal
Bo’s journal
Cold swims and a slow titration.
Off the floor
week 23quietly delighted energy 23 replies
A quiet week. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top…
Both bags, one go
week 23quietly delighted energy 43 replies
Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Swam through February. Wrote fifteen words. Full shift…
Before nine
week 22steady energy 53 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a…
No news
week 21fine energy 11 reply
A quiet week. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a…
Somebody new
week 20warm energy 14 replies
A quiet week. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the…
Sunday lunch
week 19awkward energy 11 reply
Short one tonight. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can,…
A plain question
week 18steady energy 43 replies
Short one tonight. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Got…
Two sessions
week 17tired but good energy 12 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he…
Steady
week 16flat energy 21 reply
A quiet week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Steady.…
Across the day
week 15steady energy 23 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Spread it across the day instead…
An unremarkable week
week 14fine energy 51 reply
Short one tonight. Steady. That is the whole entry. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other…
Six labelled boxes
week 12organised energy 32 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. New sharps bin, and a…
Circle tonight
week 12warm energy 54 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which…
The bad fortnight
week 11flat energy 53 replies
A quiet week. Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it this time…
Unpleasant, not dangerous
week 10flat energy 54 replies
A quiet week. Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. Sore at…
Not writing about this would be dishonest
week 10rough energy 43 replies
A quiet week. Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it this time…
Laces
week 9pleased energy 41 reply
Short one tonight. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Tide in at six.
Sunday night, four lines
week 8held energy 5
Short one tonight. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the…
A printout I cannot read
week 7brisk energy 32 replies
She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the…
Nine minutes
week 6frustrated energy 22 replies
Short one tonight. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea…