Journal
Bunny’s journal
Care home cook. Feeds everyone but me.
My mother cooks
week 24warm energy 41 reply
Evening. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Somebody asked what my secret…
Nothing to report
week 23flat energy 33 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 22held energy 34 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole…
Grip
week 21tired but good energy 22 replies
Evening. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Two sessions this week, both…
Sunday night, four lines
week 20held energy 24 replies
Evening. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before.…
Flat, whole night
week 19pleased energy 41 reply
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Breakfast shift.
Two sessions
week 18tired but good energy 42 replies
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly right. Grip…
A plain question
week 17practical energy 54 replies
Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the…
Steady
week 16flat energy 51 reply
Evening. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole…
No mask
week 15rested energy 14 replies
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and…
Before nine
week 14practical energy 2
Evening. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Started eating properly at work,…
Across the day
week 14steady energy 53 replies
Evening. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. I have found five things I can get down when…
I nearly did not write
week 13steady energy 21 reply
Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Breakfast shift.
Stayed for the company
week 12warm energy 54 replies
Evening. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring.…
No news
week 11fine energy 43 replies
Evening. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have…
A plain question
week 10steady energy 13 replies
I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Was undereating without…
A printout I cannot read
week 9frustrated energy 32 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her…
Quiet
week 8fine energy 53 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole entry.…
Circle tonight
week 7warm energy 54 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which…
Paired
week 6held energy 44 replies
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I…