Journal
Clemmie’s journal
PCOS since nineteen. Cycle back for the first time in years.
Quiet
week 74steady energy 41 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of…
Three years side by side
week 58pleased energy 41 reply
A gentle week, mostly. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Androgens improved, acne better, which she had…
She stopped the room
week 40steadied energy 23 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. PCOS circle became the place she says the unsayable…
Somebody new
week 39warm energy 24 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which…
She read the diary
week 38heard energy 22 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and…
Flat, whole night
week 37quietly delighted energy 21 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Carried both bags up in one go.…
Steady
week 36flat energy 13 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in…
Quiet
week 35fine energy 33 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring…
Stayed for the company
week 34warm energy 44 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the…
Walking
week 33tired but good energy 42 replies
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a…
Steady
week 32fine energy 23 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of…
Sunday night, four lines
week 31held energy 34 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was…
The limits of yoghurt
week 30steady energy 33 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. I have found five…
Protein first
week 29steady energy 53 replies
I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Was undereating without…
The mirror
week 28raw energy 12 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Strangers are being different with me and I hate it. I do not have a tidy thought about this. I just hate it. Complicated week. Wrote honestly about…
Quiet
week 28steady energy 11 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there…
The question I had been avoiding
week 27heard energy 12 replies
Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Asked the question I had been avoiding for…
Steady
week 26fine energy 21 reply
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Nothing to report. Writing it…
Fourteen months of waiting
week 25proud, quietly energy 53 replies
A gentle week, mostly. I have been waiting to write this entry for about fourteen months. Wrote it in the milestones page as well, which I would have found embarrassing a…
Not a number
week 24proud, quietly energy 51 reply
Wrote it in the milestones page as well, which I would have found embarrassing a year ago. Not a number. A thing I can do now that I could not do, and I am going to describe…