Journal
Fen’s journal
Flat land, flat weeks, steady progress.
Sunday lunch
week 24awkward energy 11 reply
This week: Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say…
Protein first
week 23steady energy 23 replies
Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it…
Quiet
week 22fine energy 24 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. Wrote "nothing to report" for six consecutive weeks and then apologised for it. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday,…
I nearly did not write
week 21fine energy 41 reply
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Steady. That is the whole entry. Flat again. Good.
My mother cooks
week 20loved energy 41 reply
Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you,…
Across the day
week 19steady energy 53 replies
This week: Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the…
Starters as a main
week 18loved energy 51 reply
This week: Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say…
A locum
week 18frustrated energy 52 replies
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers,…
Where the pen lives
week 17organised energy 1
This week: New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a…
Nothing to report
week 16flat energy 13 replies
This week: Steady. That is the whole entry. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Flat again. Good.
Nine minutes
week 15brisk energy 52 replies
This week: Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Asked the question I had been…
A wedding
week 14awkward energy 31 reply
Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you,…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 13organised energy 3
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in…
Quiet
week 12flat energy 51 reply
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Steady. That is the whole entry. Flat again. Good.
Two lengths, badly
week 11pleased energy 51 reply
This week: Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Flat again. Good.
She reduced it
week 10heard energy 5
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which…
Propped up on pillows
week 9flat energy 12 replies
The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the pattern it stopped feeling like something…
A rough few days
week 9sore energy 14 replies
This week: The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the pattern it stopped feeling like…
The limits of yoghurt
week 8steady energy 13 replies
Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually…
Dreams
week 7rested energy 14 replies
Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. The sleep has changed shape rather than…