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Gilly’s journal
Nurse. Terrible at taking own advice.
She stopped the room
week 25warm energy 34 replies
Well then. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle tonight.…
Two lines a day
week 24organised energy 4
Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern…
Somebody new
week 23warm energy 14 replies
Right. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped the room…
Steady
week 22fine energy 41 reply
Well then. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole…
A printout I cannot read
week 21frustrated energy 12 replies
She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking…
Not writing about this would be dishonest
week 20flat energy 34 replies
Well then. Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it this time rather…
She reduced it
week 19frustrated energy 4
Well then. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was…
Propped up on pillows
week 18sore energy 54 replies
Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it this time rather than…
Six labelled boxes
week 17organised energy 32 replies
Well then. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Batch cooked on a…
The pattern of it
week 17flat energy 12 replies
Well then. Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it this time rather…
The list on the fridge
week 16steady energy 13 replies
Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it…
Grip
week 15tired but good energy 1
Well then. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Eight minutes and a chair.…
No mask
week 14foggy energy 4
Well then. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Repeat study came back and the…
Nothing to report
week 14flat energy 23 replies
Right. Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather…
Stayed for the company
week 12warm energy 34 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said…
A plain question
week 12steady energy 43 replies
Right. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of…
Dreams
week 11foggy energy 24 replies
Right. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Repeat study came back and the apnoea…
Circle tonight
week 9warm energy 44 replies
Well then. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 9organised energy 32 replies
Right. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually…
An unremarkable week
week 7fine energy 33 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…