Journal
Gus’s journal
Finally understand why I was hungry for thirty years.
Reduced
week 91content energy 33 replies
Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady. Nothing happened again. I…
Strangers
week 69raw energy 1
A gentle week, mostly. Clothes shopping was worse, not better. I sat in the car afterwards for twenty minutes. A hard month when a colleague commented. Somebody said I looked…
Into town and back
week 48grateful energy 13 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Walked up Dumyat with his son. Swam. First…
A plain question
week 41steady energy 53 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Spread it across…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 40held energy 24 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 39organised energy 3
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Two lines a day in a paper…
Fewer, heavier
week 38tired but good energy 4
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which…
Off the floor
week 37pleased energy 11 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up.…
Steady
week 36steady energy 33 replies
A gentle week, mostly. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is…
Unremarkable
week 35relieved energy 12 replies
A gentle week, mostly. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word…
Iron and B12
week 33relieved energy 12 replies
A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard…
A1c down
week 33relieved energy 44 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said,…
Come back in a year
week 32relieved energy 12 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. A1c down. Bloods back. Unremarkable,…
No news
week 31flat energy 43 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day…
An unremarkable week
week 31flat energy 53 replies
A gentle week, mostly. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. An unremarkable…
Stayed for the company
week 30warm energy 34 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and…
She noticed first
week 29held energy 14 replies
A gentle week, mostly. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Nobody has ever asked me how I was…
A printout I cannot read
week 28brisk energy 52 replies
Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. She reduced one of my other medications. I…
Back without making it up
week 26tired but good energy 52 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time.…
Steady
week 25fine energy 51 reply
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has…