Journal
Holly’s journal
Menopause and this at the same time. Nobody warned me.
Two lines a day
week 35organised energy 42 replies
Short one tonight. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. New sharps…
Two lengths, badly
week 33grateful energy 44 replies
Short one tonight. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Joint pain much better. She credits the oestrogen and says so. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing.…
An unremarkable week
week 33steady energy 33 replies
Late, and writing anyway. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks.…
A different shape
week 31tired energy 14 replies
A quiet week. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there…
Slept through
week 30foggy energy 14 replies
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning…
Nothing to report
week 29steady energy 31 reply
A quiet week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Quiet.…
She read the diary
week 27frustrated energy 5
Late, and writing anyway. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. She reduced one of…
She noticed first
week 25held energy 14 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and…
Two flights of stairs
week 24pleased energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been…
A printout I cannot read
week 22heard energy 11 reply
She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about…
The question I had been avoiding
week 22brisk energy 54 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. A menopause…
Where the pen lives
week 21organised energy 42 replies
Late, and writing anyway. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge…
The list on the fridge
week 20steady energy 23 replies
A quiet week. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Got something with…
Back without making it up
week 18tired but good energy 3
Short one tonight. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Walked instead of the bus all week.…
Awake at four
week 16rested energy 24 replies
Short one tonight. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 15tired but good energy 12 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it…
A locum
week 13heard energy 1
Short one tonight. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She…
Steady
week 11steady energy 43 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about…
Dreams
week 10rested energy 31 reply
A quiet week. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there…
No mask
week 9foggy energy 2
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Sleep broke completely and she did not know which thing to blame. Slept through. Whole…