Journal
Juno’s journal
Sceptical, anxious, staying anyway.
Nothing happened again
week 88content energy 1
Right. Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady, still sceptical,…
Steady
week 73flat energy 23 replies
Well then. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week…
Once, then never again
week 71full energy 11 reply
Right. Thank you to the person who replied to my first entry within an hour. You will not remember it. I do. A grudging, funny, genuinely moving entry at sixteen months. I…
The question I had been avoiding
week 71brisk energy 52 replies
Right. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed,…
Paired
week 68held energy 54 replies
Right. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 65held energy 44 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole…
An unremarkable week
week 63fine energy 53 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked,…
Into town and back
week 60pleased energy 31 reply
Right. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Swam. First time since school. Two…
A locum
week 58brisk energy 12 replies
A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea…
Off the floor
week 55grateful energy 11 reply
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever…
Laces
week 53quietly delighted energy 41 reply
Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Cycled the Downs Link without stopping. Got down on…
Nine minutes
week 50heard energy 12 replies
Well then. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. She reduced one of my other medications. I…
No news
week 47steady energy 31 reply
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has…
Steady
week 45flat energy 33 replies
Well then. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week…
Flat, again
week 42frayed energy 31 reply
Well then. Flat again. I have stopped looking, which is either healthy or avoidance and I genuinely cannot tell. Three months of no change and my blood pressure has come down…
Anchored to the shifts
week 39organised energy 12 replies
Well then. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Two lines a day in…
Nothing
week 39frayed energy 12 replies
Right. Nothing. Eleven weeks of nothing. I know intellectually that nothing is not a failure, and I am finding that intellectual knowledge worth approximately nothing this…
Grip
week 37tired but good energy 22 replies
Right. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps…
She reduced it
week 34heard energy 32 replies
Right. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed,…
An unremarkable week
week 31steady energy 53 replies
Right. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. An unremarkable week. Ate,…