Journal
Kai’s journal
Trying to speak to myself the way I speak to friends.
No project
week 92flat energy 14 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady. The…
Where the pen lives
week 78organised energy 52 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Tested three cool bags against a…
Paired
week 76held energy 24 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become…
Sunday night, four lines
week 74held energy 5
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. Paired with bly_b. They check in on Sundays.…
Back without making it up
week 74tired but good energy 12 replies
Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Two sessions this week, both short, both…
She read the diary
week 71frustrated energy 32 replies
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Left with a printout I could not read and no…
No news
week 69fine energy 13 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made…
An unremarkable week
week 68flat energy 31 reply
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Steady. That is the…
Slept through
week 66tired energy 44 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 64held energy 34 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become…
Steady
week 62flat energy 43 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Steady. That is the whole entry. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have…
She noticed first
week 60held energy 54 replies
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a…
No news
week 58fine energy 23 replies
A gentle week, mostly. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. No news.…
Off the floor
week 56grateful energy 31 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check.…
Walking
week 56tired but good energy 22 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in…
Paired
week 54held energy 54 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it…
Starters as a main
week 52warm energy 11 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word.…
Two sessions
week 50tired but good energy 1
A gentle week, mostly. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Came back after a bad fortnight…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 49organised energy 42 replies
Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one…
Into town and back
week 47grateful energy 51 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years…