Journal
Moss’s journal
Walks, weather, weekly journal.
Nothing happened again
week 84content energy 5
Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Steady. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best…
Flat, again
week 55low energy 32 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Ada said something in circle that has stayed with me: that a plateau is weather, not a verdict. I have written it on a card. Flat, and he wrote about…
A wedding
week 52awkward energy 11 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be…
What is your secret
week 51loved energy 21 reply
My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's.…
Nothing to report
week 50flat energy 53 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An unremarkable week. Ate,…
No mask
week 49rested energy 44 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I…
A different shape
week 48rested energy 2
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning…
Paired
week 47held energy 24 replies
A gentle week, mostly. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next…
Quiet
week 45flat energy 31 reply
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I…
A new bin and a plan
week 44organised energy 32 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. New sharps bin, and a…
I nearly did not write
week 42steady energy 43 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring…
She noticed first
week 41held energy 5
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and…
Nothing to report
week 39steady energy 13 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I…
Two flights of stairs
week 38grateful energy 52 replies
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Slept flat. Whole…
Quiet
week 36fine energy 23 replies
A gentle week, mostly. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An…
Flat, whole night
week 36quietly delighted energy 12 replies
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Walked to Heptonstall and back twice in a week. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat.…
Anchored to the shifts
week 35organised energy 42 replies
New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results…
I nearly did not write
week 34fine energy 33 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I…
Nothing to report
week 33flat energy 53 replies
A gentle week, mostly. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An…
The question I had been avoiding
week 32frustrated energy 32 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Took the diary in.…