Journal
Norah’s journal
Nights, then days, then nights. Sleep circle regular.
Reduced
week 90settled energy 33 replies
Right. The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I was enjoying having one. Steady. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the…
A1c down
week 69relieved energy 22 replies
Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only thing worth looking at. Fine. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference…
Flat, whole night
week 45quietly delighted energy 43 replies
Right. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Slept seven hours after a night shift for the first time in years. Full shift…
Quiet
week 42steady energy 33 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the…
Stayed for the company
week 41warm energy 3
Right. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped the room…
She noticed first
week 40held energy 5
Well then. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will…
She stopped the room
week 39warm energy 14 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said…
A new bin and a plan
week 38organised energy 2
Right. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Small logistics win: worked out where…
Sunday lunch
week 37warm energy 11 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is how she says…
Starters as a main
week 36warm energy 31 reply
Right. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is how…
Anchored to the shifts
week 35organised energy 32 replies
Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and…
What is your secret
week 34loved energy 51 reply
Well then. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is…
Awake at four
week 33tired energy 24 replies
Right. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. The…
Nothing to report
week 31flat energy 53 replies
Right. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An unremarkable…
Off the floor
week 30quietly delighted energy 41 reply
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice…
Protein first
week 29steady energy 43 replies
Well then. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of…
Paired
week 28held energy 34 replies
Right. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I…
Stayed for the company
week 28warm energy 54 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Shift-workers circle became the fixed point. Went for the…
A different shape
week 27foggy energy 44 replies
Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. The sleep…
I nearly did not write
week 26steady energy 43 replies
Right. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a…