Journal
Norah’s journal
Nights, then days, then nights. Sleep circle regular.
My mother cooks
week 25awkward energy 11 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is how she says…
She stopped the room
week 24warm energy 34 replies
Right. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle tonight. Eight…
Quiet
week 23fine energy 23 replies
Well then. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…
Nothing to report
week 22fine energy 23 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did not write this week because…
Stayed for the company
week 21warm energy 24 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped the room when four…
Dreams
week 20tired energy 3
Well then. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it.…
Two flights of stairs
week 19pleased energy 31 reply
Right. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to…
A wedding
week 18warm energy 21 reply
Right. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is how…
Slept through
week 17tired energy 54 replies
Well then. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it.…
I nearly did not write
week 17flat energy 31 reply
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That is the whole…
Quiet
week 16steady energy 11 reply
Right. Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of…
Sunday lunch
week 15awkward energy 51 reply
Well then. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is…
Before nine
week 14steady energy 33 replies
Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the…
She stopped the room
week 12warm energy 4
Well then. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the…
Walking
week 11tired but good energy 3
Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were…
Nothing to report
week 10steady energy 13 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An unremarkable week.…
Laces
week 9quietly delighted energy 21 reply
Well then. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Swam. First time since school.…
Where the pen lives
week 9organised energy 32 replies
Well then. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Small logistics win: worked out…
Sunday night, four lines
week 7held energy 34 replies
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the…
The list on the fridge
week 6steady energy 33 replies
Right. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Protein first, everything…