Journal
Nuala’s journal
Two teenagers. No privacy. Journalling anyway.
Steady
week 38steady energy 33 replies
Well then. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to report. Writing it…
Somebody new
week 36warm energy 54 replies
Well then. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the practical answers…
Sunday lunch
week 35loved energy 41 reply
My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Somebody asked what my secret was…
I nearly did not write
week 34fine energy 33 replies
Right. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No news. The dog…
Flat, whole night
week 32pleased energy 51 reply
Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Swam. First time since…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 31tired but good energy 42 replies
Right. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for…
Nine minutes
week 29brisk energy 32 replies
She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about…
The pattern of it
week 28flat energy 32 replies
Right. Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. Manageable. Sore…
Dreams
week 26rested energy 44 replies
Right. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. The…
Starters as a main
week 24loved energy 21 reply
Right. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Somebody asked what my…
What is your secret
week 23loved energy 31 reply
Well then. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Somebody asked what my…
No news
week 21fine energy 43 replies
Well then. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to report. Writing it…
Quiet
week 19fine energy 33 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No news. The dog is…
Stayed for the company
week 17warm energy 44 replies
Right. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Somebody new tonight,…
She noticed first
week 16held energy 54 replies
Right. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the…
Hiding the box
week 15prickly energy 11 reply
Hid the box for two months. Not sure who from, exactly, in a house this size. My sister started too, three weeks after me. We compare notes badly and lovingly. A relative…
At the table
week 13close energy 34 replies
Well then. Hid the box for two months. Not sure who from, exactly, in a house this size. My sister started too, three weeks after me. We compare notes badly and lovingly. A…
A new bin and a plan
week 12organised energy 32 replies
Well then. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. New sharps bin, and a plan for what…
Why are you not eating
week 12tender energy 43 replies
Right. Hid the box for two months. Not sure who from, exactly, in a house this size. Her daughter found it and asked good questions. My sister started too, three weeks after…
Circle tonight
week 10warm energy 5
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at…